Growth

Everyday I question so many things and I find it makes life very difficult at times.  It's hard for me to have a moment of peace or tranquility when there is so much I want to accomplish and so many thoughts running through my mind.  I told my wife recently that the reason it looked as if I was struggling to relax on a recent cottage trip, was because for some strange reason I felt that I haven't earned it yet.  What I mean by that is I've had many struggles, and many hard times, but there have also been many amazing times and some very relaxing times, therefore at this moment I want to get things done before I re-enter the relaxing faze.  I am so driven right now it is unreal, and a couple of the side effects are impatience and doubt.  I finally understand what one of my friends told me now.  He said the reason I will be successful is because I won't quit, no matter what.  It's true, even though I am impatient, and sometimes allow the doubt of others and even myself to creep in from time to time, I have learned how to ignore those negative thoughts, and quickly remind myself of the journey I'm on, and to only remain focused on that.  It's quite a remarkable feeling, and as one of my close friends recently commented to me, it's like I have matured 5-10 years in a span of 8-12 months.  I am happier, and the fact that I wake everyday and feel like I have something positive and fulfilling to work on is one of the best feelings ever.  I almost feel like a child in many ways.  My eyes are wide open, my tail is bushy, and I'm ready to learn and explore.  Who knew at 35 years old I could feel like this again.  I guess maybe an old dog can learn new tricks.  Not that I am old, but I have definitely lived, and I have definitely been in more than my fair share of negative routines that I thought I would never escape.  Keep that light at the end of your tunnel, please understand that there is always a time for change and growth, and we must continue to reach for these things.  It's the secret of life, keep evolving, keep moving forward!

My first Interview in Print

This morning my interview with the Canadian Jewish News was unveiled in the latest edition.  I was extremely anxious and a little nervous to see how it looked, but I mostly felt excitement as I felt confident it would be great.  I couldn't be more pleased with the outcome, the writer Riva Gold, did an incredible job, and I'd like to extend my gratitude to her.  I also wanted to take a moment and thank all the people who have called, texted, and emailed me with their warm comments, and most importantly their support.  As I continue on this journey it has been nothing short of amazing the way things have unfolded for me personally and professionally.  I definitely have to give a shout out to my awesome team, Lowell, Leticia, Amed, and everyone at Pollination Media, thank you for all your efforts, especially you Lowell.  I can say this, as soon as I decided to erase and ignore as much negativity from my life as possible and only focus on the positive, there has almost been a magical element to my progress.  I truly hope I continue to enjoy more positive outcomes with this first venture as I believe it will be the start of big things.  I feel stronger more than ever these days and I truly owe it to the therapeutic aspect of writing this book, and the journey that has begun.  If there is one thing I could pass on to anyone, it's that you must be able to clearly know what it is you want, and how you would like to get there, believe it or not, for many people this is one of the most difficult steps.  Once you can establish what it is you want, and how you'd like to get there, you must focus all the positive energy you can muster into achieving those goals you have set out for yourself.  If you can do that, and ignore the negative people and situations that you will undoubtedly face, I believe you will be well on your way.