Everyday I question so many things and I find it makes life very difficult at times. It's hard for me to have a moment of peace or tranquility when there is so much I want to accomplish and so many thoughts running through my mind. I told my wife recently that the reason it looked as if I was struggling to relax on a recent cottage trip, was because for some strange reason I felt that I haven't earned it yet. What I mean by that is I've had many struggles, and many hard times, but there have also been many amazing times and some very relaxing times, therefore at this moment I want to get things done before I re-enter the relaxing faze. I am so driven right now it is unreal, and a couple of the side effects are impatience and doubt. I finally understand what one of my friends told me now. He said the reason I will be successful is because I won't quit, no matter what. It's true, even though I am impatient, and sometimes allow the doubt of others and even myself to creep in from time to time, I have learned how to ignore those negative thoughts, and quickly remind myself of the journey I'm on, and to only remain focused on that. It's quite a remarkable feeling, and as one of my close friends recently commented to me, it's like I have matured 5-10 years in a span of 8-12 months. I am happier, and the fact that I wake everyday and feel like I have something positive and fulfilling to work on is one of the best feelings ever. I almost feel like a child in many ways. My eyes are wide open, my tail is bushy, and I'm ready to learn and explore. Who knew at 35 years old I could feel like this again. I guess maybe an old dog can learn new tricks. Not that I am old, but I have definitely lived, and I have definitely been in more than my fair share of negative routines that I thought I would never escape. Keep that light at the end of your tunnel, please understand that there is always a time for change and growth, and we must continue to reach for these things. It's the secret of life, keep evolving, keep moving forward!
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